幫一個生命做決定真的好難…… - 倉鼠
By William
at 2010-08-10T23:10
at 2010-08-10T23:10
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不知不覺,我家小天尊也走了5天了~
今天晚上我媽突然跟我說,她看到天尊開完刀回家的那天,心就好疼
因為她開刀的部位在手的附近,所以她只要一拉扯到就會很痛,我媽說她有看見
天尊手一碰到地就馬上縮起來顫抖……
雖然我沒有看到,但是光是想到那個場景我就想要飆淚……
我開始想當時她是什麼樣的心情
當她開開心心的跟我出門,到了醫院,我笑著跟她說加油,把她交給醫生,她跟
著一個完全不認識的人,到了一個完全陌生的地方,然後那個陌生人給她呼吸一
種怪怪的空氣之後,她就睡著了……
等到她醒來,發現整個世界都不一樣了!
她的身上多了一個三公分的大傷口,她只要一動,傷口就好疼……疼到她不想吃東
西,就算肚子好餓,但是吃東西會痛,所以她不想吃。
她好渴,可是想站起來喝水,身體卻不受控制的失去平衡的跌倒,所以她放棄喝水
主人有逼她吃東西,但是她一吃東西就好痛,所以她不太願意吃,主人因為心疼她
一直抗拒,所以也沒有硬逼她吃太多,但是主人離開家整整八個小時,她好餓好餓,
餓到她無法支持到主人回家……
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我一直在想,我決定幫她開這個刀究竟是對還是錯?
她不會說話,我不知道她願不願意動這個刀,所以我依照我自己的想望去做,但是只要
一想到她醒來之後可能會是這麼的無助和害怕,我就好後悔好後悔……
以前不管做什麼決定,都只跟我自己有關係,我可以自己承擔,但是一旦要幫別的
生命做決定,這個決定就變的好重大,因為我沒有辦法幫她痛,也沒有辦法跟她溝
通,叫她不要掙扎乖乖吃東西。
這個生命的課題實在是好難,以前只是想像,所以不覺得困難,但真的遇到之後,才
知道其中的問題所在……
只要一想到天尊這幾天所受的苦,我就好難過,同時也怕她怪我,怪我害她吃了這麼
多苦……
雖然我是因為愛她才做這個決定,但是我的愛是不是剛剛好害了她?
天尊,對不起。
我真的不是故意要害妳這麼難過
如果可以重來的話,我不會讓妳去動這個手術,我會讓醫生幫妳開消炎藥、止痛藥
讓妳快快樂樂的過完這一生……
對不起。
PS.希望大家的鼠鼠都能無病無痛,不要像天尊一樣吃這麼多苦……
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