[翻譯] 給歌迷的一封信 - 狗

這封信是歌手Fiona Apple寫給她歌迷的一封信，約六個小時前貼在她的臉書上，
為了取消巡迴演唱的行程所寫。
理由跟狗狗相關，而且非常感人，所以我斗膽貼在狗版，希望沒有違反規定。

因為我看完後一把鼻涕一把眼淚，把它迅速地翻譯出來...
質量可能不太好，所以有錯誤的地方請指教m(_ _)m

分享給大家。

原址：https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=486858768014508&set=a.195751057125282.46346.191278307572557
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It's 6pm on Friday,and I'm writing to a few thousand friends
I have not met yet.
I am writing to ask them to change our plans and meet a little while later.

現在是星期五晚上六點，而我正在寫信給好幾千個我尚未見面的朋友。
我要請求他們讓我們計劃中的會面延遲一點時間。

Here's the thing.
I have a dog Janet, and she's been ill for almost two years now,
as a tumor has been idling in her chest, growing ever so slowly.
She's almost 14 years old now.I got her when she was 4 months old.
I was 21 then ,an adult officially - and she was my child.

因為，我有一隻狗Janet，她已經生病兩年多了，當一顆腫瘤在她胸腔裡空轉，
慢慢地擴散。
她已經將近十四歲了，她在四個月的時候來到我的生命，我當時二十一歲，
一個名義上的成人，而她曾是我的孩子。

She is a pitbull, and was found in Echo Park, with a rope around her
neck, and bites all over her ears and face.

她是一隻鬥牛（比特）犬，在Echo Park被發現的時候，她的脖子被一根繩子懷
繞，而耳朵跟臉上全是咬傷。

She was the one the dogfighters use to puff up the confidence of the
contenders.

她是鬥犬訓練師專門用來強化鬥犬自信心的。

She's almost 14 and I've never seen her start a fight ,or bite, or
even growl, so I can understand why they chose her for that awful
role. She's a pacifist.

她已經幾乎十四歲，而我從未看到她引起爭端、打架、咬人、或甚至是低吼，
所以我可以瞭解為什麼她被選擇去做這件糟糕的事，她是個和平主義者。

Janet has been the most consistent relationship of my adult life,
and that is just a fact.
We've lived in numerous houses, and jumped a few make shift families,
but it's always really been the two of us.

Janet已經是我成人生命中最穩定的關係，而這是一個簡單的事實。
我們一起住過不同的房子，也跟幾個家庭湊合過，但我們兩個總是永遠在一起。

She slept in bed with me, her head on the pillow, and she accepted my
hysterical, tearful face into her chest, with her paws around me,
every time I was heartbroken, or spirit-broken, or just lost, and as
years went by, she let me take the role of her child, as I fell asleep,
with her chin resting above my head.

她跟我一起睡，她的頭枕在枕頭上，然後她用她的胸口全然接受我歇斯底里且充
滿淚痕的臉龐，用她的腳掌抱住我，每次我傷心、低落、或是迷失的時候，然後
這些年過去了，她讓我成為她的孩子，當我入眠的時候她的下巴便抵在我的頭頂
。

She was under the piano when I wrote songs, barked any time I tried to
record anything, and she was in the studio with me all the time we
recorded the last album.
The last time I came back from tour, she was spry as ever, and she's
used to me being gone for a few weeks every 6 or 7 years.

我寫歌的時候，她總是躺在我的鋼琴下方，我試著錄音的時候總是會吠叫，我們
在錄上一張專輯的時候，她總是在錄音室裡。
我上一次巡迴演唱結束後，她仍是依舊精力旺盛，而且她已經習慣我每隔六、
七年間總是會消失個幾個禮拜。

She has Addison's Disease, which makes it dangerous for her to travel
since she needs regular injections of Cortisol, because she reacts to
stress and to excitement without the physiological tools which keep
most of us from literally panicking to death.
Despite all of this, she’s effortlessly joyful and playful, and only
stopped acting like a puppy about 3 years ago.

她有阿迪森氏病，讓她無法跟著我一起去旅行因為她需要定期注射皮質醇，更因
為她對壓力跟激動情緒有反映，沒有一些心裡的工具幫助的話，她很可能會恐慌
致死。
但除了這些之外，她依舊毫不費力地快樂且俏皮地活著，而約三年前才停止像小
狗般的行為。

She's my best friend and my mother and my daughter, my benefactor, and
she's the one who taught me what love is.

她是我最好的朋友、我的母親、我的女兒、我的恩人，而且她教會我什麼是愛。

I can't come to South America. Not now.

我現在不能去南美，不是現在。

When I got back from the last leg of the US tour, there was a big, big
difference.
She doesn't even want to go for walks anymore.

當我從最後一次US巡迴演唱回來時，她有一個巨大的改變。
她甚至已經不想去散步了。

I know that she's not sad about aging or dying. Animals have a survival
instinct, but a sense of mortality and vanity, they do not. That’s why
they are so much more present than people.

我知道她並非因為老去或是死亡而難過。動物有生存直覺，但他們沒有死亡感跟虛
榮感。那就是為什麼他們比人類更容易活在當下。

But I know that she is coming close to point where she will stop being
a dog, and instead, be part of everything. She’ll be in the wind, and
in the soil, and the snow, and in me, wherever I go.

但是我知道她已經幾乎到了那個時候，到了她將不會是一隻狗的時候。
而她將化為所有一切的一部份，她將會化為風的一部份，土的一部份、雪的一部
份，我的一部份，無論我去哪裡。

I just can't leave her now, please understand.

請理解我此時此刻無法離開她。

If I go away again, I’m afraid she'll die and I won't have the honor
of singing her to sleep, of escorting her out.

如果我現在離開，我很害怕她將會死亡，而我將不會擁有替她唱入眠曲、送她離開
的榮耀。

Sometimes it takes me 20 minutes to pick which socks to wear to bed.
But this decision is instant.

我有時會花二十分鐘的時間去選擇我晚上要穿什麼襪子入眠。
但這個決定是立即的。

These are the choices we make, which define us.

有些我們做出的選擇會定義我們。

I will not be the woman who puts her career ahead of love and
friendship.
I am the woman who stays home and bakes Tilapia for my dearest,
oldest friend.
And helps her be comfortable, and comforted, and safe, and important.

我將不會是那種會把職業放得比愛跟友情更重要的女人。
我是那種會待在家裡，為了我最親愛最老的朋友烤一隻羅非魚，
並幫她感到舒適、得到安慰、安全且重要。

Many of us these days, we dread the death of a loved one. It is the
ugly truth of Life, that keeps us feeling terrified and alone.

我們之中的很多人現在都很怕親愛的人的逝去。這是生命中最醜陋的真相，讓我
們覺得害怕且孤獨。

I wish we could also appreciate the time that lies right beside the
end of time.

我希望我們也能夠欣賞在結束之前，那些最後的時刻。

I know that I will feel the most overwhelming knowledge of her, and
of her life and of my love for her, in the last moments.

我知道我將會感受到她給我最鋪天蓋地的知識，關於她的生命、我對她的愛，
在最後的時刻。

I need to do my damnedest to be there for that.

我需要我最該死的努力，去陪伴在她身邊。

Because it will be the most beautiful, the most intense, the most
enriching experience of life I've ever known.
When she dies.

因為那將是我知道的，最美麗、最緊湊、最豐富的生命經驗。
當她走的時候。

So I am staying home, and I am listening to her snore and wheeze,
and reveling in the swampiest, most awful breath that ever emanated
from an angel.
And I am asking for your blessing.

所以我待在家裡且聽她打呼跟哮鳴，陶醉在一位天使所吐出最似沼澤般、最可
怕的氣息中。
而我請求你的祝福。



I'll be seeing you.
Love, Fiona

我會再來看你們。
親愛的，Fiona。

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